Trouble from Kansas City

I've been avoiding my blog because I've found that I'm still very bitter about all this and as I write I either become overwhelmed with sadness or really pissed off. Most of the time I'm pissed. I'll try to take deep breaths and just remember it's the past and I can only control what happens today.

Okay......deep breath.

By the time our Trouble from KC started, his drinking was out of control. Each time I had the chance I would check his cell phone only to notice he was talking to "Kristen" several times a day. She was a high school classmate who was living in KC at the time. Of course this caused fights and he just said, she was someone nice to talk to and non judgemental. Bullshit.

One Friday afternoon he picked me up at my house after work so we could head to KC for an Elton John concert. He was TRASHED!! Of course he always denied it then would finally give in. We fought for about 30 mins before we even left the city to head down. He even drove me back to my house at one point and told me to get out of the car. I never did. We manged to make it to KC and it only got worse. Low and behold, Kristen was going to be at the Elton John concert too and she called us when we got there so they could say hi to eachother. Dave's excuse for drinking was that he was nervous and hadn't seen her in years. We met her inside the concert, said hello and then found our seats. Once we got back to the hotel, I noticed she had sent him a text message during the concert. Bitch!! Oh, and she was supposidly "happily" married. Riiight. This shit with her lasted until he finally went to treatment. He actually even used his phone time while he was there (and he had very little) to call her. FINALLY, everything stopped and he was more honest with me about things after he had gotten sober.

Still to this day, I'm not sure why I stayed. Looking back, I've realized that I was just as sick as him................